Starting A Project & Being A Mother

by A Girl For All Status

One sunny day, I just thought to myself, "Why not design my own website from scratch?" This, coming from a computer and techie idiot. But it's not a wildly original idea. In fact, anyone can do it given the proper knowledge or education. So I said to myself, "It's time for everyone to see my greatness. I'll do it." I would enroll in a short course, learn the ropes and design my own website. Great!

The next day, I enrolled in web page design course which would last three weeks. I paid for it and left excited that I would be tech-savvy in no time. I could now see how my website would look. Plus, I had become obsessed with all the fortune I could make designing other people's website. I know I'm not the first one to have this idea but bear with someone who has not made a single cent after giving birth to her second child. This could be hallucinations. I also imagined socializing with my classmates while sipping coffee during breaks and listening appreciatively to one another's efforts to rule the internet world.

After that I went to pick up my kid from her therapy and fetch her big brother at home so we could have lunch. While driving along West Avenue, I excitedly told my son that I enrolled in this class and informed him my schedule and that while I'm in school, he's responsible for his sister. Of course, I didn't tell him beforehand since it's still vacation and he's not doing anything worthwhile so I suppose it would be ok with him.

I forgot that my son is now a teenager and he also has some wild ideas of his own. During Fridays, he has badminton with his friends and that's only day he gets to see his girlfriend. At first, I couldn't understand it. What's more important? Him seeing his girlfriend or me taking over Microsoft and the internet. I could be rich and famous as a matter of fact. But the mother in me took over and unfortunately, this project has to be put on hold.

No more bright ideas, no more creative endeavors, no more projects. I think I heard someone say to me before, if a thing is worth doing, it's worth putting off. Where the hell did it come from? If something is worth doing, do it now. Right? Or the moment just passes you by. Now, that I know came from My Bestfriend's Wedding.

So, ok. I'm willing to give this up for the time being and just stay home taking care of my kids and seeing them do their million projects. But it's a comfort to think that I'm not the first mother to miss opportunities to better themselves and put on hold starting a project you've been dreaming about.

It's Mother's day in a few days, write about your personal sacrifices so I can add yours to the magnificent tales of sacrifices I'm already getting. "For the kids, for their sake. For always." Now, where did I get that?